Share a story – Alice Ella

M.E. is:

M.E. is not just being ‘tired’ or even ‘exhausted’.

It’s a biological illness, and trust me, I can tell you, it’s really real.

(I wish it wasn’t)

M.E. is:

  • Using severely limited energy to fight for medical help and care
  • Not being believed and being accused of faking symptoms, or being ‘lazy’
  • People seeing you for a few moments doing a little better, and presuming that that’s how you are all the time
  • Constantly having to monitor how much you’re doing (including very low levels of activity)
  • Having to choose between things like having a shower or briefly seeing a friend that day

M.E. Is:

  • Not having the strength to see your friends or even watch your favourite tv shows
  • Living in pyjamas whilst your cute clothes stay in the wardrobe
  • Losing your independence and having to rely on others even for small tasks
  • Not knowing how far you can push your body before crashing, and how long the crashes will last
  • Never being able to reliably make plans (and be able to stick to them)

M.E. Is:

  • Grieving the life you thought you would have
  • Not being able to predict how you’ll feel, or how much you’ll be able to manage on any day
  • Having so little energy, that you struggle with basic needs like eating, drinking or washing etc
  • Watching the world move on without you
  • Spending whole days, weeks, or more, go by from the same spot

M.E. Is:

  • Invisible yet devastating
  • Living in your own world, which becomes very small
  • Grieving the future you thought you would have, and all that you’ve missed out on
  • Missing out on milestones, relationships, holidays, having your own family, jobs, education, birthdays, weddings, singing, dancing, living and thriving
  • Disappearing whilst the world looks away

M.E. Is:

Real.

@itsaliceella